Jennifer Rostock U.S.
Ich Kann Nicht Mehr

You take small steps when you associate with them that day
And even in the dark, I hear the chains that you haven’t worn for a long time rattling
No more hot tin under your feet, but you dance
Not because you want to dance, but because you can’t do anything else

The paths you came on were mined for the most part
We bandaged your wounds, put the most necessary in splints
I shared my bread, my water, my morphine with you since then
Even though I know that my nearness is what heals you the best

But I can’t do it anymore, I can’t do it anymore
My look is dry, my hands empty
I can’t do it anymore, I can’t do it anymore
And I know it isn’t fair

And I can’t do it anymore, I can’t do it anymore
My heart grows deaf, my head grows heavy
I can’t do it anymore, I can’t do it anymore
And we act like it’s a beginning

You draw the contours of doors on the wall with chalk
Kick them open and run into the darkness with a knife in your hand
You keep going into new wars, but it’s the same battle
I’ve fought along and stood guard with so many of these dreams

I can’t do this anymore …

Every next step is a step too far, every step together
And I don’t understand, I’m sorry, I’m sorry
But this castle stays unrepaired
The wallpaper is smeared with fear and envy
I’m sorry

With every look, there’s a threat
Of a new fight, a new death

I can’t do it anymore …